It’s hard for me to find the words to start with this story. A lot has happened in the almost 2 years since I’ve had my little boy and I don’t know how much longer we’ll continue to breastfeed. But if my story can help inspire and empower others then I want to share it.
Not being able to breastfeed was a big fear
I can begin by telling you that breastfeeding is much more than calories for my son. And for me, it has been one of the best yet most difficult experiences of my life. Breastfeeding, as well as motherhood, is empowering. I’ve learned and grown a lot and I feel passionate and strong enough to share my journey.
Since the moment I was pregnant one of my biggest fears was not being able to breastfeed. It was a big desire for me to be able to be as conscious and natural as possible in motherhood. I wanted to go back to my roots and my ancestry. I wanted to avoid anything that could make my journey anything but instinctive.
Since the moment I was pregnant one of my biggest fears was not being able to breastfeed.
I felt like I’d failed by having a c-section
After 24hours of labour, which ended in a c-section, I already thought I had failed as a mother. I remember I was very dizzy and confused. I barely could speak and I just told my mom not to let them give my son formula. All the nurses rejected and they said that it was so dangerous because I wasn’t well! I was shaking a lot and I was weak, but my love and God gave me the strength I needed. I insisted and even demanded they give me my baby and my Mom was also there to protect us.
Grandma was doing an amazing job (biologically all family tree changes and grows when a baby is born, and so grandma was there to help). So my mom helped me hold my baby while I was breastfeeding him. I remember she even held my jaw and arms to keep me from shaking and moving so much. So I successfully was able to nurse my baby in those first few hours after his birth.
My mom helped me hold my baby while I was breastfeeding him. I remember she even held my jaw and arms to keep me from shaking and moving so much.
We’re still feeding 20 months on
Since then there are been ups and downs. Joy, nourishment, love in the purest form, bond and healthy attachment, mastitis 4 times, crying, pain, tiredness, excessive hunger, and all of this just leads and prepares us to live life with more confidence and gratitude. Breastfeeding is a committed task, which requires patience and presence, just like parenting itself! I can see all the amazing benefits and results in both of us.
My baby is 20 months now and is a healthy and strong boy. His development and social skills make me feel so proud as a mom. I know all journeys are sacred and unique, and yet we are all together in this. We are all one and I know my experiences can help the world and hopefully more women will get stronger to follow their heart and instincts.
My baby is 20 months now and is a healthy and strong boy.
I want to help others on their breastfeeding journey
I use my word to spread knowledge and consciousness about it. The world needs to understand that breastfeeding is not an intimate or sexual activity. Women are extremely powerful and society wants to diminish that power.
My message will always be to be proud of our natural magic. Don’t let others tell us what to do. Stand out and respect one another. There’s no manual or wrong or right formula. There’s just LOVE.
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